F.U. CANCER!

I originally posted this back in January after the passing of a friend and remarkable woman. I'm re posting it now because someone else I know is facing the same devil we call cancer. This is for you Dejah! You are one tough bugger and YOU WILL BEAT THIS! You are better and stronger and you can win, stay positive! And so I wrote...

F.U. CANCER! You bastard no one wants you here, go back to the hell you emerged from and live an eternity with the pain you inflict on so many. We will fight you until you are nothing more than a bad memory! We will be victorious because we believe we are stronger and better and far more deserving than you could ever pretend to be.

You are NOT going to continue to devastate families. You are NOT going to hurt anyone any more. Just leave, you are UNWANTED. We will find a cure, your days are numbered and you will not survive. You do not deserve the lives you claim you will be stopped dead in your tracks. We will be victorious, heed my words YOU ARE DONE!

OK, deep breath, shake it off, center, focus. I know I can't just demand cancer go back were it came from, it's not human. If it were human however, I would have no problem beating the crap out of it for all the pain and suffering it has caused. Oh, and the endless suffering I would condemn it too. I would have absolutely NO remorse for it's deserved suffering. I don't like the word hate, I was taught to not hate but dislike. Well, cancer I HATE YOU! You have taken far too many innocent lives, and the ones you've touched but did not take, they live in fear of your return every day of their lives, and that's a hell no man, woman or child should ever be forced endure, because of the sick pleasure you take in tormenting them.

I have lost friends and family to cancer, and while I understand it's not always a battle that can be won, every single person faced with this fight does exactly that, fight. Some win and survive, some don't. It is a battle only they can fight, their families and friends can only stand by and cheer them on, offer support and feel absolutely helpless. It's heart breaking to think of children and grandchildren who will grow up without their moms, dads or grandparents. Or parents who's child is taken far too soon. It's heart breaking for life long friends to loose someone who is so much a part of them that the void left is unfillable. Death is as much a part of us as life is, yet to have your life pulled out from under you by such an ugly disease that just for the fun of it can take years to do it's job is so utterly UNFAIR.

Ya, I know life is unfair, but when you reflect on the devastation cancer causes this would be the one thing I think when it's OK to not have to just suck it up because life isn't fair. Why have the researchers not found a cure? What are they missing. I used to believe that it was the pharmaceutical companies who don't want a cure found. Yet with all the fund raising and awareness we still cannot conquer it in every case. Is research really being hampered by corporations only interested in making money off the suffering of cancer fighters? Are we really such a heartless society? I really hope not. I pray for a cure for all cancers, I pray it's found sooner than later. I pray that every single soul on this planet can be armed and ready with a simple vaccine so the slimy cancer beast can be easily defeated before it can touch any of us.

I'm sad and angry and disappointed and yet, I'm hopeful. I hope for a cure, I hope for those who battle daily that they conquer, that they are victorious. That's what they deserve, they do not deserve to be ravaged by cancer. I am so very grateful for my own health and the health of my children. I know if ever I am faced with the need to battle, I will with all my might. I will not give up or give in. I will cheer on and support anyone I know who is fighting this fight and I will continue to pray for a cure. I will beg and plead for lives to be spared, not for the life alone, but for the lives that will be devastated by their passing. I know I am only one of many who are currently crying out for help, but our voices combined surely must be loud enough to be heard, surely.

I HATE CANCER and the devastation it causes. It's the crap the devil scrapes of the bottom of his shoe onto society, and leaves for us to clean up. We will continue to fight, and maybe one day, we can put down our battle gear and just be. Right now, at this very moment please take a minute to reflect on the fighters you know, the ones who have fought and won, and those who have passed to eternal peace. Take a moment to be truly grateful for your own health, and the health of your loved ones. Say a prayer for those who are in the midst of battle and send them all your strength, they need it.

With much love, light and a cancer free world.
Tammy.