Letting Go.

Sounds simple but it's not.  Not really.

There are events that occurred in my life I would love to let go of but I can't.  I can't because they get thrown in my face every now and then and it makes my blood boil.

There is nothing I can do about it. I can not control the thoughts, words or actions of others yet I would love to.  I would love the opportunity to say..."wait a minute, that's not entirely accurate."  But I can't because it would only cause further aggravation for me.

So I take a deep breath and tell my self to detach from drama and let go.  For now at least.  There is nothing I can do to change the past.  There is no one I can explain it to who would actually believe me, yet what I know is the truth.  I can't force someone else to stop living the lie they believe because I say so, yet I so desperately want to.

Detach from drama. Detach, detach, detach.  Nope not working, still fuming, still wanting to stomp my foot and say CUT IT OUT! But there is no one to listen. They wouldn't hear me even if I screamed it at them.  I know this. 

Deep breath, pause, shake it off...a little better. I tell myself I know the truth.  I do not live a lie.  I am not delusional about the circumstances of my life.  I will not be bullied if even subtly.  I will let go...one day...soon.