We are born and we grow up. Along the way we are taught. First by our parents then our friends, teachers and eventually by our own children if we decide to have kids. We experience so much in our life time as short or long as it may be that we tend to take some of these lessons for granted.
My parents taught me to love myself and others equally. My friends taught me that we are all individuals, unique, but all striving for the same goal, survival. My teachers taught me about the world around me and how simultaneously big and small it is. My children have taught me that I'm not done learning.
It's what we do with this knowledge that will make the difference in our lives. We are all attending this school called life and sometimes we misbehave and get "detention" you know what I'm talking about. Those experiences we have that we are not entirely happy about the "why me?" experiences. All part of learning. We need to have these experiences good and bad to determine what kind of individual we will be. Where our place in this classroom is when our last breath is exhaled. Are we the class clown, the bully, the popular kid, the nerd, the jock, the perpetual hall monitor, or the invisible kid?
I think most of us are the invisible kid. You know the one, he/she sits at the back of the class listens intently but says little. The one at your high school reunion you vaguely remember, it's not a bad thing, it's just the way it is. That's the person we should all strive to be, not invisible but existing in harmony with everyone, not needing to be the clown or the bully or popular or a nerd or jock and certainly not the hall monitor. Just being, and absorbing and taking with them volumes of knowledge to pass on to the next generation.
I was that kid, invisible for the most part. At least that's how I saw it. I'm still somewhat invisible. I try not to call attention to myself, however I suppose blogging and facebook has changed that for me somewhat. But what I really wanted was to be popular or smart or even the class clown. Didn't want the title of bully or hall monitor, but invisible...not my first choice not back then. Yet I sit here and am learning that maybe that wasn't such a bad thing after all.
You see, I did a lot of observing, I tried a few things too but mostly I watched and waited. The one thing I observed is a lot of people out there are just like me...quietly sitting at the back of the class watching the other students and learning, absorbing and digesting so that when the time comes for us to step up, we have the answers. Are they the right answers? Maybe, only time will tell. What I do know is that as long as we keep a higher purpose in mind they certainly won't be the wrong answers.
My kids are relying on me now to impart the knowledge I have gathered so far on them. So far it's been a pretty positive experience. I also see where my negative experiences will help them make better choices for themselves, I've learned so they don't have too. But then maybe they need to as well, or maybe they will encounter a situation that I hadn't and they will teach me. Learning is a life long commitment. And for some, even longer.
When I'm faced with my graduation from this life to the next I hope to not only leave behind a lifetime of knowledge but to take with me these same experiences so when I return maybe I will get the be the popular kid, or the jock or even the nerd. So long as I'm not a bully I'll take invisible too!
With much love, light and what did you learn today?
Tammy.
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